Making Love

Stop & pay attention
I want to make love with you
& I don't just mean the bump & grind
I mean, I want to create a force with you
A power that can be felt from miles away
I want to make a blanket of happiness with you stitched together by the tears and the hurt and the pain because I know that the path we created through the heartache is the mold that holds us together
I mean, I want to swallow your sorrows and twist them up inside me just so I can release the familiar warmth of Sunday dinner ; of granny in the kitchen cooking grits & frying chicken ; of that blanket we lay under in the summer time with AC on just to create a year long cuffing season that pales in comparison to the eternity we are facing fingers laced and hearts intertwined
I mean , I want to run naked with you into freezing water because that way I'll be imprinted in your mind until.....forever
And when I say I want to make love with you
I mean I want you to do that thing where you squeeze my body and smother me with kisses
I want you to tell me you're afraid to die without me because you may be afraid to ask God to bring me along for the journey
I need you to hold me when the world get crazy & people get mean & my nerves get shaky
But see when I say I want to make love with you I really mean I want to gaze into your eyes just to see the butterflies & I want to touch you to feel the electricity between your skin & mine & I want you to kiss me so I can beckon you closer with my lips & I want to feel nothing but you against me so that we can experience the oneness that God designed us to create ; designed us to feel ; designed us to make ....over & over & over ...

Fvvhfjbh cup kick gvcdfdsdi

fuck me

you fuck me with your mind
you fuck me with your pen
then you take a break and fuck me with your dick again

you fuck me from the top
you fuck me on the bottom
i'm in love with the feeling so i tell you to fuck me all over again

you hold me close then fuck me
you fuck me then push me away
i know that doesn't seem right but i let you fuck me anyway

you fuck me in my car
you fuck me on the sofa
you fuck me so good i change my mind on being over

you've fucked me from the start
you'll fuck me to no end
now i know why im broken , you fuck me in my heart

Mental Happy Hour

i take a shot of you in the morning
thinking that some how i'll get high off how i imagine you to be
somehow i'll get lifted off my imaginations picture of who i thought you were
and ill be ready to face the world
the people who reject the love i have growing inside of me
because i know some version of you has my back

i take a shot of you in the afternoon
hoping that there's a way to get through my day without feeling
what it is that i really feel for you
i create illustrious illusions in my mind not to be mistaken for delusions
because it's real
in some past ... or future
because just because the you I'm hanging on to isnt current
does not mean it's any less real

i take a shot of you at night
praying that somehow you'll wake up as who i need you to be
and as i lay in bed ..alone
i ask the imagined you to hold me
and i lay
and i stare
and i wait
and just like from the original i get no reply
so i wrap my arms around myself
the truth wins out

April 30, 2010

I knew before I saw
before I heard any sound
read any words
I knew.
I knew your love was gone
because the love within myself also faded
no more sleepless nights
thinking about you
and teary eyed days because of you
so I knew all too well
before I knew her name
& before I saw her face
just know,
I knew

After School Detention April 28,2010

I am in detention
there is no clock
I can't use my phone
or the warden will take it
I hate detention
It is very boring
It's making me tired
but I can't go to sleep
or the warden will make me come back
I am slowly being killed by dention
It hasnt even been 20 minutes
but time is relative
I'd leave but the warden will give me hell
Someone should save me from jail--- i mean detention !

Stop the World?

And life does that sometimes
grabs you by the balls and makes you
pay attention; realize you're not in control & there is more
than you
makes you open your eyes that were
shut by routine
and see --- more ; simply yet ...complex
takes you off of the path you chose
and places you where you belong
and by that it whispers "let go"
the meaning of it all repeated.
'cause the world won't stop with you.